.oo9 x this is flipping insane.

[karriezai]

I took the SAT today. I think I probably did well. I mean, better than last time, at least on one section, hopefully two. I always do well. Anyway, then I was home for a couple hours, watched a movie, and then work for the rest of the day, and I work tomorrow at 10:45 in the morning. This weekend is maybe a bit of a bust.

But I saw Man of the Year with my family, and I liked it. I didn't really go in with any expectations whatsoever, good or bad, but I liked it a lot. That was last night. They were going to leave me because of the SAT, so I could go to bed early, but... I'd been trying to go out with mom all week and get a bra and hair dye, and I didn't want something to interfere again. So I ended up really tired at work, but I was fine during the SAT. I actually finished my essay this time, and I think I did better at math.

Ah man. I'm tired. So I guess that's it.

(everything else was removed. wtfever.)

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[keptawake.livejournal.com]

SpyBuddy means erasing the history is useless.

Thank you, I appreciate what you said -- a lot. My dad isn't all that bad... he definitely has a lot of good qualities, and he's been a good parent in teaching me values and standing up for myself and stuff like that. I just... can't stand his temper, the way he can get so unreasonable when he's angry, and more than that -- the slightest thing can set him off. And his lack of respect or perhaps even understanding of the need for privacy in a lot of ways. And it doesn't help that he has a mean sense of humor. Being irritating is fun for him.

Still, I'm a lot luckier than so many other kids, and I know it. But he taught me to stand up for myself, and I can't stand up for myself when it comes to him.

[missbrownie.livejournal.com]

Well, my father isn't the worst of all fathers, of course. His biggest flaw I think, is he believes he is always right. Doesn't matter which reasonable arguments you throw at his head, he still believes his right.

"Being irritating is fun to him." Yep, same for my father. Sometimes it is fun, to communicate like that, but sometimes I'm tired or actually want to be serious. At least I know a lot about sarcasm and irony, which is a plus in today's world, I think.
Also, my father is always the victim. If I'm sick, somehow he twists it and he end up being the victim. The saddest thing is he doesn't realize all of this. He really doesn't, he thinks he's perfect. And intellectually, I agree, he is very strong; but when it comes to imagining how other people feel he's a zero.
I know he cares for me though. Materially I miss nothing, I'm probably spoiled rotten in many ways, but psychologically... I'm pretty messed up in a way. I'm just insane. :)