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Got an email from Suzanne (my supervisor at my internship) saying some things came up at the supervisor's meeting that she needs to touch base with Alice and me on. Seeing as it's just the two of us, I'm thinking it has to do with me being a slacker and Tracy (lead supervisor or whatever) knowing it. I don't think she likes me much because last semester I skipped one of her classes without emailing an excuse, and this semester I skipped the first after school seminar again without an excuse, and Monday she caught me getting to school late. It's the only time I've been late this semester, but of course that's the time she catches me. I have a valid excuse: I was sick all last week (still have the cough) and even had to miss Friday, though I emailed her for that, so I can just blame being sick. I did email Alice to let her know I'd be late, I just didn't email Tracy or Suzanne.

If that's the case, at least we'll be talking to Suzanne and not Tracy. I'm not fond of that woman, and Suzanne is much nicer and more reasonable. Blah.

Other than that, the internship is going well. I've had less trouble with getting up early all the time than I anticipated, though I do always push it until the last possible second before getting out of bed. I've taken over reading, and am in the process of fully taking over science and math. Need to do some planning for that after this, actually. We're starting cells and heredity in science, and math is statistics. I'm going to borrow one of Danny's tape measures and have the kids graph the class heights and find the measures of central tendency for the data.

Have not been writing. Finished a chapter of a Zelda fanfic, but nothing other than that. Rargh. But I mean, I'm busy. A lot. So I guess it's not so bad an idea to not force writing where it doesn't want to come.

I wish my cough would go away...

I learned today at my GYN appointment that a colposcopy involves putting vinegar... up there... and watching how the body reacts. Talk about strangely gross. However, my exam turned up normal, so I just have to come back in a year and get a direct HPV exam instead of a normal PAP. Assuming that comes back negative, I'll be all clear. If not, it'll just mean another colposcopy.

I'm going to smell like vinegar all day D:

I submitted a query for "Unjoined" to Rebel Tales. I'm planning on submitting "Control" to Realms of Fantasy next time I go out. (It's snowing now. Yeah, little early for that. Craziness.) And I found a historical fiction magazine to submit "Death in Theatre" to and did that as well. I wish all submissions could be electronic now.

I need to type up a resume for Tracy and sign up for the middle school Praxis II exams for math and language arts. Deadline for both is today. So... I guess I'll work on that next, and then possibly revise Unjoined. And then... I'm considering revisiting the dead twin realistic story I got two pages into a while back... or maybe working on The Evil Realm... or something.

ETA: Done with the essentials mentioned above. Off to shovel the driveway... assuming I can find a snow shovel... yay exercise?

 I'm a little overwhelmed right now.

Work: I work at Safeway now, specifically in the Starbucks.  It's fun and less boring than other jobs, as Starbucks has always been for me, but the pay is miserably low (and lower than I was told to expect now that the manager who hired me has been forced into early retirement) and it took a month for me to get paid because I was put in the system wrong at first.  On the (small) plus side, Danny was wrong; there is an employee discount, even if it's only on Safeway Select brands.

Health: My ear is a mess.  I got water caught in it a week ago at the pool and it still feels like a bubble.  I went to the ER Monday and they gave me the option of irrigating it or using medicine drops, and when they advised more toward the drops I agreed.  Well, it's still not fixed, and it's absolutely irritating.  And it keeps getting just a little better before getting worse again, so like... I made an appointment yesterday morning but didn't go because it felt a little better and I thought the medicine was working, but now it's fucked again.

School: I've missed a lot of class lately.  I've skipped math the most, but that's not too worrisome because it's easy and I'm not really missing much.  But I missed my ed internship two weeks ago because I overslept... and I missed all my classes this Monday because I went to the ER for my ear... and even though I woke up and drove my groupmates to school for my ed internship Tuesday, I only stayed about 45 minutes because I was still tired and had to work that night, so I wanted to get some rest.  I can't get my Writers' House citation because I can't take the non-WH creative writing class--not enough credit room.  But that's half-blessing-half-curse.  It means one less summer class.

Stories: I have so been slacking.  In fact, that's what I need to do next.  I'm also worried that my NaNo plans will tank again this year...

STUPID EAR.  I hate it.

All my comm grades are finally in. I made an 89 on the final (pretty damn good considering) and an 86.something in the class (well, it's a solid B, I can live with that). In theater they promised to have final grades in by Monday at midnight, stat prof said he'd have them in probably by some time tomorrow... In Honors I'm just waiting on him to grade my final, but seeing as I only need a 147 out of 200 to get an A in the class I'm not too worried... And definitely gonna make a B in Writer's House, which is pathetic. Gotta do much better next semester. Blah.

ETA: I just calculated my grade so far for stat, and I'm not going to make an A (I'd need to make a 147.5 out of 150 on the final), but I should easily make a B since I'd only need about an 87.5 on the final (that's about 59%, haha), and that's without including the one extra credit sheet I did in class (but I think that may just be worth one point, haha). So, all that considered, I should make a 3.588 if I make an A in theater (I only need a 165 out of 200 on the final, I think I'll be okay). Or a 3.412 if I somehow make a B in theater. Yes, yes, I'm very obsessive. /edit

Okay. I'm watching Coyote Ugly. Maybe this time I'll actually finish it. I wanna be a coyote!

Danny's sick. It's miserable because he's not sick enough to just stay in bed and be waited on, he's walking around and working and stuff, but he's sick and grumpy and miserable. I feel bad because it can get kind of annoying, but I shouldn't be annoyed by my sick baby. Meh.

I work tonight, and tomorrow morning. But no school! No homework to worry about! Just work, and exercise, and trying to write, and trying to keep the house clean. Meh. But hopefully I make lots of money, and sell lots of merch, and go home early.

I'm sick. I couldn't sleep last night because of a sore throat. My throat feels better now (due probably in part to Danny forcefeeding me disgusting DayQuil) but my muscles all still ache from the constant tossing and turning and not getting any rest in general. And my stomach had that empty ache, but I think it's starting to turn into just hunger.

At least I don't work today.

Well anyway. Dennis and Heather brought over his mom's cat because she's out of town. He's fat but cute, very polite compared to a lot of cats. He seems to like people, he's only very very mildly skittish. You'd have to actually startle him to set him flying... if you approach him, he'll sit and let you pet him. When I was eating lunch yesterday he was sitting on my feet sniffing at my sandwich. I gave him little pieces of turkey on my plate to keep him from sniffing and/or licking at the sandwich itself. =)

I need contacts. I'm wearing my last pair and it worries me whenever they act up because I don't want to lose them.

I only made $27 Sunday morning (it was dead, I only had five tables). And I only made $62 yesterday. That's not SO bad I guess. Thinking about it, since I was cut early it was about $10 an hour tax free. I didn't sell any merchandise or Blue Moon or anything like that though. I work my first trivia night Wednesday night, hopefully I'll do better then.

Okay so naps and stuff. I was hoping to pick up my parking pass and maybe go to the gym on campus today but I have to feel better first.

Mehhhh. I'm so tired. I want a day when I don't have to get up and do anything. No alarm clocks, no work, no school. My last day off was last Thursday. My next isn't until next Wednesday, and I swear if they try to get me to work that day I will NOT say yes. Not even for a four hour shift. That'll be almost two straight weeks of work and school with no days off.

Poor Danny is sick, and while I want to take care of him there have been a couple moments when I've wanted to stab him for needing this or wanting me to do that when I need to take care of myself, too. Like when I need to be awake in four hours to go to work and he's trying to get me to do this or that. No. Need sleep.

Blah. So tomorrow I have to get up at 4:30am. Today I have class straight until 3:15 and then work from 4:15 to 9:30. That hour long break between will mostly be consumed by walking to my car and then driving home to change. I may even be late, but if I will be I'll call them and if they don't like it they can suck it.

Danny said he'd visit me at work to keep me company for a while. I really hope he does. It'd be something, at least.

Anyway, Saturday I have to get up at 6:30, Sunday 7:30, Monday 7:30, Tuesday 8. And then a blessed break. All I'll have to do Wednesday is whatever homework I get on Tuesday.

I wish I had some gum. ;_;

So tomorrow will be my first day of Monday classes. I'll have to find time to go to the gym... I mean, I could just run, but I'd prefer to go to the gym. I could go after class, but I wouldn't have time to do the rock wall afterward. I suppose I could do the rock wall first, except I at least want to stretch first, and I won't have time. I could go between JOUR100 and HONR100 -- that's about two and a half hours, that's enough time. The whole showering thing will suck though. I'll work it out.

I'm listening to Laura on the phone with her parents, phasing in and out of English and... I guess Taiwanese? I don't know exactly what. But it's interesting to notice how the speech inflections are completely different from English. That's the writer in me coming out.

Anyway. So Danny left for Vegas this morning. We went to bed just before 3 and woke up at 6:30. Arty drove us... he's a weird kid. He asked me on the way back, when he was driving me to College Park, if there were any creepy guys in my dorm, so I told him about the kid from my Creative Writing seminar... who isn't exactly creepy, but who didn't seem to care that I have a boyfriend... and Arty said that to a lot of guys if your boyfriend doesn't go to the same school, if he isn't around all the time, then he doesn't matter. Like they can still edge in. He said a lot of guys just assume a lot of girls will cheat... or something like that. I didn't reply, my mind was already moving on to another subject, but a minute later he said, "You don't have to reply to that, that was awkward." Haha. "I took it as rhetorical," I told him. He's a strange guy in some ways, but harmless, and nice enough.

Danny'll be in Vegas until Thursday, which isn't bad considering I'll have school through Thursday so I might not have seen him anyway. I hope he has fun, but I do wish I could go... and I was 21 so I could actually DO stuff if I went...

So yeah. The schoolwork isn't so bad. It isn't really necessary to close read a lot of the assigned reading -- skimming is fine because lecture covers the pertinent info from the reading. I had a group assignment in COMM200, but I did the hard part and it didn't take long. Hopefully my group members will mostly be able to copy-paste-rearrange what I sent out -- tweak and improve it.

I'm working out regularly. It's weird to say since it hasn't even been two weeks of working out regularly yet, but I've been on top of it with no reluctance or anything. And I go to Black Belt Club Tuesdays and Thursdays from 8:30 to 10:30 at night. My workout outside the club consists mostly of twenty minutes on the elliptical trainer, stretching, sit-ups (not necessarily in that order), and climbing the rock wall since I can't do push-ups. If I'm at Danny's, I run. I'm learning to pace myself so I can actually run the full mile... then sit-ups, and stretching still. I'm gonna try to do maintenance stretching on "days off" from exercising, and hardcore stretching whenever I go to the gym. Anyway, since it's been just more than a week, my muscles are still adjusting. It's not really painful, just uncomfortable.

I'm also getting sick, it seems. A tiny bit of a runny nose and a sore throat. Wonderful, right?

So far it hasn't rained, but that'll suck. For classes and for working out. The temptation to just not go out in the rain at all will be great. Especially since I don't have an umbrella... I should invest in one of those. Or a poncho or something.

Aaaand I was a little nervous, but I did exempt out of JOUR181 with an 88-point-something... I'm glad because I was expecting a bare pass, like an 80 even or something, haha. I'm so glad because that frees up my Wednesday. I have one lecture at 9 in the morning and the rest of the day is mine. Or my job's once I get one... lol. Speaking of which... I really hope someone hires me. I applied at Starbucks and filled out a multi-purpose campus application... I suppose I should go looking around some more. I could apply to become a shuttle bus driver for $10 an hour except I hate driving...

Friday barely exists for me. Thursday I went to bed at... one-ish after watching Click. No school on Friday, just work at 4, so one was a reasonable bedtime, yes? (Click was decent, by the way. I enjoyed watching it, at least.)

Woke up Friday at one in the afternoon (after waking up once or twice during the night and trying cough drops and that throat spray to no effect until my dose of medicine kicked in) and had no voice. At all. It was kinda scary really. So I had Cris call my parents so one of them could call my work to say I wasn't coming in. (I knew he'd be too chicken to call himself, the big scaredybear.) Went back to sleep at like... three. Slept on and off until twelve Saturday (today). So out of those twenty-four hours, I was awake maybe twenty? Ish? That's a lot of sleep. So today when I woke up, I felt weirdly... floaty. Like I was just dreaming, and everything that had happened before was a dream too. I finally distinguished reality from dream (because I did dream a little, about Egan)... but it took forever for that floaty feeling to go away. Until just now, really. No... it's kinda still there. Whatever.

Anyway, I saw The Prestige with mom and Cris, and I really liked it. A freaking ton. It's one of those that I get out of the movie and I just want to babble on with someone about theories, events, what this meant, where this fit in, blah blah blah... but mom and Cris aren't those sorts of people, so I had to shut up. On a day when I was feeling better, I might not have shut up, haha.

I work tomorrow. I'm starting to feel better, so I'm gonna go in. It's just four hours. I already lost like five and a half this week when I only had 13 to begin with, so yeah, let's not lose any more.

Danny's at my Starbucks now. I guess he was permanently transferred finally. They've been talking about it.

Righto. Tata.