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How much do I fail? Let me count the ways.

1. I'm getting into fanfiction again. Hardcore. Probably just a phase, but at the moment I'm dying for feedback on my LoZ and KH stories, and really considering picking them back up. Which, erm, would probably mean even less productivity on my original prose, if that's possible.

2. Going off the above: I have written very little. It's Spring Break and I've only written maybe 500 words? At most 1,000. -headdesk-

3. I haven't woken up before 11am all week.

4. I haven't used the time to get ahead on my homework.

So. General fail.

Title: History
Genre: Harry Potter
Rating: PG
Word Count: 2,045

Written for another RCR challenge--a character gets a chance to change a mistake they made in the past. I chose Dumbledore. The story is set just as Voldemort is beginning to gain real power. It is before Harry was born.

( Ariana’s crumpled body lies on the floor of his mind, but the Time Turner in his hands could change her fate. )

So I picked the five stories I'm most likely to work on, made sure each had a neatly formatted Word document, and created a shortcut to each on my desktop. I chose:

The Legend of Zelda: Elemental Force - my old monster of a story. It centers around the idea that when Zelda reset time at the end of Ocarina of Time in order to allow Link a real childhood, an alternate timeline was created for the realm of the living in order to keep Ganondorf sealed in the Realm of the Exiled. The ocarina's fragile magic maintains the dual timelines for the seven years up until the moment time was reset, but then it is stretched too far and shatters, causing the realms to fracture. Din, Nayru, and Farore send out anchors to hold the realms together, but they can't repair the damage until the elemental temples jarred by the fracture are restored to balance. The Triforce pieces go to their rightful Guardians: Link, Zelda, and a thief from whom Ganondorf stole the Triforce of Power, more rightfully known as the Triforce of Strength. The thief has remembered his nightmarish alternate past all along as no one knew to suppress his memories, which made him seem insane; Zelda remembered her alternate past shortly before the ocarina's magic shattered; and Link does not remember, and likely will not now that the alternate history has lapsed.

The Legend of Zelda: The Evil Realm - also one I've tried to write before, but not as many times and not as long drafts. Also set after Ocarina of Time, with time having been reset. Link dimly remembers his alternate past, and clearly remembers his adventures in Termina. It's enough to make life really boring for him since the world isn't in need of saving. He spends a lot of time roaming the Lost Woods, kind of hoping for something exciting to happy. While avoiding a pack of wolfos, he stumbles across a set of giant rusty iron doors and passes through. On the other side, he finds that there are no doors through which to return to Hylia, and this new world severely weakens Tatl, who decided to remain with him after Termina. There is no magic in this new world, and the fairy requires magic to survive. The new world, he soon finds, is our Earth, and he meets Rali, a kokiri who wandered through the same doors seven years ago and aged in the absence of magic. She is his guide to Earth, and through his undaunted insistence that they can find a way back to Hylia, she regains hope in trying to make her way back home.

Horizon - a Kingdom Hearts story set after the events of KH2 and assuming that Axel is Riku's Nobody, and that as long is Riku is alive and whole, Axel cannot truly die. When a Nobody dies but his Heartless still exists, the thin strand of soul still connecting them snaps back to the Heartless, giving it all the Nobody's memories. The new being created, something slightly more than a Heartless but not whole either, is called a Wraith. The Organization's Wraiths after KH2 are Ienzo (Zexion), Braig (Xigbar), Vane (Saix), and Lourd (Luxord). Using the combined knowledge of Heartless and Nobody, Ienzo learns that the Keyblade is really more of a force which manifests physically to hearts that are strong enough to wield the power. He sets about using the remnants of Xemnas' artificial Kingdom Hearts to try to manufacture his own Keyblade, and in the process sends a shockwave through the world that, among other things, separates Sora and Kairi from their Nobodies once more.

For a Soul - original erotica based off of a twisted version of The Little Mermaid, combining aspects of the original Hans Christian Anderson tale, the Disney story, and my own ideas.

Blood and Heat - the rewrite of the Blood and Heat already listed in my writing index.

I suppose I'll post them here as I write. If I get far enough on the fanfictions, I'll start posting them on fanfiction.net.

ETA: So I remember: Derek and Leara.

Finally decided to post this. I don't know when I'll add to it, so for now it's just the prelude and first chapter. Maybe once I beat KH2 again. We'll see.

For this one I'll just post one summary thing.

Post-KH2, this story assumes that Axel is Riku's Nobody. This story concerns Wraiths, the beings that arise when a Nobody is defeated but still has an existing Heartless. Zexion, or rather Ienzo, is one such. His experimenting in an attempt to understand Keyblades leads to a new set of problems, causing a ripple through the worlds that, among other things, separates Sora from Roxas and Kairi from Namine again.

Title: Horizon / Prelude
Genre: Kingdom Hearts
Rating: PG
Word Count: 829(ish)

( Suddenly he was Ienzo, but with Zexion present inside him, in memories and in a cold voice curling at the back of his mind. )

Title: Horizon / One : Rupture
Genre: Kingdom Hearts
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1,353

( Sometimes, watching Sora like this, Riku wished he’d been braver back in the beginning, when he still had a chance. )

Found Avatar icons since I was suspiciously lacking.

Also, more picspam.


The picture in the middle? Yeah. That's a bottle of pee. Danny and I do weird things at night. x) Also, I finally got a couple halfway decent pictures of the deer in the neighborhood. A bunch of pictures were added to Photography, a couple to Oddments, and a subgallery with a couple pictures was added to Around the House.

Names is at 2,674 words. Like I said before, slow going, but at least it is going. I add at least a little every day, so far. I'll probably still add more today. I just finished Silk and Aerlun's meeting and Aerlun's near-enslavement... next will be a true introduction and an intro to the Whips, I think. As in, as of now Aerlun doesn't even know Silk's name, Silk just kept him from being collared.

Yeah, that's enough babbling about stuff no one gets but me. I was trying to find this Sora/Riku fanfiction I read a long time ago on adultfanfiction.net, before it was redesigned. I don't think I'll ever find the story again, to be honest, which is a shame since I liked it a lot. I can't remember the name, which is the biggest problem. I just remember it was after the original KH (KH2 hadn't come out yet, I don't think even CoM had come out yet), and upon leaving Kingdom Hearts Sora was caught and enslaved... and Riku finds him, and the only way to save him from his current master is to buy him away. Something like that, only much less lame than my explanation. It was definitely yaoi, fairly explicit boy-on-boy sex.

Uh yeah.

Oh! I saw a picture recently of these tattoos... this guy got the Triforce on one arm and the Deathly Hallows symbol on the other. I thought it was really cool. I wouldn't get the Deathly Hallows tattooed on me; I'm not into that particular Potter concept enough to make it a permanent part of my body. But it makes me really anxious to get my Triforce tattoo. For our two year anniversary, assuming we still want it, Danny and I are supposed to each get a Triforce tattoo... simple, but still managing to highlight courage for him and wisdom for me. We haven't decided yet, though, how to highlight our pieces or where his should go. We've got until November for that. Aside from that, I may someday get one other tattoo... perhaps involving turtles, since they're cute and my college mascot.

I interviewed at the AMC theater at the boulevard today. I was surprised by how quickly they replied, since back when I was looking for a job and got hired at Starbucks, I'd been working there almost three months when AMC finally called about my application. Three days is dramatically shorter. Anyway, the interview went... averagely. I mean, it seemed like it went well, but it was just a typical interview. The guy remembered Egan, though. That was cool. He said they're interviewing 20 people to fill 8 positions, and if they're gonna offer me one of the positions then I'll get a call by 5:30 tomorrow.

My pay from Starbucks is pathetic as usual. I bet at the theater I'd get enough hours to earn more than at Starbucks even if they pay me a little less. And it's supposed to be really fun to work there. We'll see if I get it. If not, well, I put in a lot of applications, so I'll find work somewhere.

Yeah, I think that's it, except Chad, Danny, and I were talking about getting me a fake ID after my interview today, haha. We were talking about fake IDs in general, actually, and how if your ID says you're 21 then it's fake, lol, because no one's 21, they're 19 pretending to be 21 or they're 22.

I should get some sleep though, so that's all.

edit Okay so maybe not. First of all, I was looking at my tags and how egan's is still bigger than Danny's. It's just because I've been spending too much time with Danny to actually write about it regularly, of course, but eh. I was looking through old Egan entries, and jesus, how things have changed. I kind of made myself forget how strongly I thought I felt about Egan until I read some of it again. The thing is, with Tim I admit that I did love him -- not true adult love, but I was in love with him all the same -- but with Egan, I think it was something else. It was the situation. I don't really know.

Danny, though, I love. Like... there is absolutely no question whatsoever. And I'm only getting closer to him, more comfortable with him. For a little while, it bothered me that he would say I love you so readily when slightly inebriated, but not nearly so often when completely sober... but not anymore, because I realize I can see it on his face, and that's far more important. Saying it without words is precious.

Bah. Secondly. I've decided that the writing method that works for me is forming a sturdy skeleton for the story and then writing it, fleshing it out as I go. It's how I've accomplished my most effective writing. Elemental Force, I had the whole framework: the conflict with the realms unravelling because the doubled-over timeline snapped back to one again, the temples they had to right, the biggest challenges they would face. All the major plot elements were already developed, I just had to flesh it out by actually writing it. Heart of a Werewolf, I had a real framework, chapter-by-chapter, which worked well because it was short and to the point. For my 2005 NaNo stuff, I had all the major plot elements in place, too.

Just finding a beginning and a hint of an ultimate conflict and running with it really isn't enough for me.

Keeping this in mind... tomorrow I'll try to build, if I don't just sleep during my freetime in class. Haha.