.oo8 x wtf dad
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karriezaiAs much as I hate to do it... I have to start friend-locking some of my entries. I'm a very open person, with everyone, and it doesn't bother me to leave my entries public -- except my dad fucking stalks me on the internet. He'll find one of my online journals and start shit based on entries I've written, some of them from months ago. I'm very open with him, extremely open; I don't know anyone else as open with their parents as I am. But there are some things I just can't talk to him about, mostly concerning his faults, because he gets irrational when angry and the stupidest shit can piss him off.
With anyone else, I'm perfectly willing to own up to whatever I write should they find it. I'm willing to discuss it, whatever. But it just doesn't work with my dad.
This also means I'll probably be splitting up what ordinarily would be a single post a lot of the time, because I don't want to f-lock everything, just the stuff I don't want to bother with my dad about.
Like this:
Yuka put me into a very precarious situation today. I didn't stop it, so I'm very much at fault, but Yuka initiated it. I'll deal with it. Perhaps I needed it; my boundaries are looser than hers, and I know I've pushed hers a little from time to time. But at lunch she told Brandon to feel my boobs the same way she did Danny... then she felt them under the bra (I don't mind it from her, it just makes me laugh) and moved his hand under my shirt... yeah, it pushed my boundaries a little. I don't know him all that well. He's a nice guy, but I just don't know him that well, and just as important he doesn't know me that well... so naturally a misunderstanding arose. In precalculus, he came over and sat with his arm around me a couple times, and then kissed my neck... and asked if I had a boyfriend. I told him sort of... and he said, "Now you do."
But I dunno, he left after that, I'm not sure quite how deep in I am. Like I said, I'll sort it out.
And I worry that people may begin to think of me as being loose. Ordinarily I wouldn't care what people think, but this school isn't the safest of places, and guys could misunderstand -- I don't want to get myself hurt. I'm not worried about Brandon, he's a cool kid. But there are others.
God I'm hormonal. I love flirting (although I'm an equal opportunity flirt, and that often includes girls). But I have my limits. I so want to be kissed and all that business, but I want Egan.
A lot of these guys, I'd crush on them if I didn't already have feelings for someone. It's weird to think about. To know that and still... love Egan. God though, I'm physical, I miss that contact horribly. It's the hardest part.
With anyone else, I'm perfectly willing to own up to whatever I write should they find it. I'm willing to discuss it, whatever. But it just doesn't work with my dad.
This also means I'll probably be splitting up what ordinarily would be a single post a lot of the time, because I don't want to f-lock everything, just the stuff I don't want to bother with my dad about.
Like this:
Yuka put me into a very precarious situation today. I didn't stop it, so I'm very much at fault, but Yuka initiated it. I'll deal with it. Perhaps I needed it; my boundaries are looser than hers, and I know I've pushed hers a little from time to time. But at lunch she told Brandon to feel my boobs the same way she did Danny... then she felt them under the bra (I don't mind it from her, it just makes me laugh) and moved his hand under my shirt... yeah, it pushed my boundaries a little. I don't know him all that well. He's a nice guy, but I just don't know him that well, and just as important he doesn't know me that well... so naturally a misunderstanding arose. In precalculus, he came over and sat with his arm around me a couple times, and then kissed my neck... and asked if I had a boyfriend. I told him sort of... and he said, "Now you do."
But I dunno, he left after that, I'm not sure quite how deep in I am. Like I said, I'll sort it out.
And I worry that people may begin to think of me as being loose. Ordinarily I wouldn't care what people think, but this school isn't the safest of places, and guys could misunderstand -- I don't want to get myself hurt. I'm not worried about Brandon, he's a cool kid. But there are others.
God I'm hormonal. I love flirting (although I'm an equal opportunity flirt, and that often includes girls). But I have my limits. I so want to be kissed and all that business, but I want Egan.
A lot of these guys, I'd crush on them if I didn't already have feelings for someone. It's weird to think about. To know that and still... love Egan. God though, I'm physical, I miss that contact horribly. It's the hardest part.
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13/10/06 07:06 (UTC)I'm thinking that boy needs to have somethings spelled out for him.
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13/10/06 10:40 (UTC)(no subject)
14/10/06 07:04 (UTC)