.o51 x sick of this house
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karriezaiI got interrupted writing that entry last night. I mean, I had more to say, but the moment's gone. I'm so tired of living with my parents. Ever since I turned sixteen whenever my dad has gotten particularly pissed with me he's thrown a suitcase on my bed and told me if I don't like living here, I'm old enough I can get out. He'd give me a suitcase and my clothes, he says. And when I turned eighteen... not right when, but later on, we got in a huge fight, and I finally managed to speak through my crying. I have the hardest time trying to talk when I get upset. Well, in this huge fight, the thing I remember most is him telling me I'd overstayed my welcome. Kids are supposed to leave the house shortly after turning 18, but I'm still here, finishing up my senior year of high school. He told me it's natural -- kids grow into their own people and push the bounds of their independence, and I didn't want to be here anymore, living under his rules, and he didn't want me here anymore. Which is true enough, but it still sounded horrible to me, especially said in anger.
Yes, I absolutely do want out of here.
Last night... I was working on that entry and Dad came in. I had asked earlier if Danny could borrow the cable that turns a wireless Xbox 360 controller into a wired one temporarily... just for two days. Dad said sure reluctantly. So when he came in last night after Danny had gone, he said, "I just want you to know, if Danny decides to propose to you, I draw the line at him borrowing your mother's wedding ring." I just gave him this dumbfounded stare. Cris asked what he was talking about, and he said, "She knows. She might tell me she doesn't, but she knows."
I said, "I don't see what him borrowing that cable has to do with that." And kept staring.
Dad said, "And movies, and you borrowed my whole case of software once..."
"That was my fault," I reminded him, because I got in big trouble for borrowing the whole case of software, and it was my idea.
"I know," he said, "but I'm just telling you I have to draw the line somewhere, and I draw it at your mother's wedding band."
I continued to stare. Dad was smiling real big like it was hilarious, and he looked at Cris and said, "Look at her, she hates me right now. She's thinking, 'This isn't funny at all.'"
Damn fucking right. About it not being funny. I don't hate him. But sometimes he's infuriating. I guess everybody is, sometimes, but ah.
Yes, I absolutely do want out of here.
Last night... I was working on that entry and Dad came in. I had asked earlier if Danny could borrow the cable that turns a wireless Xbox 360 controller into a wired one temporarily... just for two days. Dad said sure reluctantly. So when he came in last night after Danny had gone, he said, "I just want you to know, if Danny decides to propose to you, I draw the line at him borrowing your mother's wedding ring." I just gave him this dumbfounded stare. Cris asked what he was talking about, and he said, "She knows. She might tell me she doesn't, but she knows."
I said, "I don't see what him borrowing that cable has to do with that." And kept staring.
Dad said, "And movies, and you borrowed my whole case of software once..."
"That was my fault," I reminded him, because I got in big trouble for borrowing the whole case of software, and it was my idea.
"I know," he said, "but I'm just telling you I have to draw the line somewhere, and I draw it at your mother's wedding band."
I continued to stare. Dad was smiling real big like it was hilarious, and he looked at Cris and said, "Look at her, she hates me right now. She's thinking, 'This isn't funny at all.'"
Damn fucking right. About it not being funny. I don't hate him. But sometimes he's infuriating. I guess everybody is, sometimes, but ah.
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28/3/07 01:52 (UTC)