.229 x pep talk or...?
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karriezaiEntry part the second: day of self loathing. We'll call it mild.
So this is going to be a small part pep talk and a large part beat-self-over-head-kick-ass-into-motion.
I need to write. Not just anything. Aerlun's story. Daemien's story. I've been getting this vague feeling lately that I'm getting closer to pushing through the barrier that's keeping me from just getting up and going on this story. Well, I need to force my hand and push it now.
I'm not in an awesome place right now. I'm not in a bad place... I mean I'm really lucky in general. I'm in college, I've got Danny (and I couldn't ask for more than him), and I don't have to worry about money... not really, anyway. But I haven't been doing any substantial writing in ages. For my workshop submission, I did a quick edit of "For a Soul" and submitted it... which is a good piece for the workshop, I think, but disappointing when I intended to write something new. I'm also not doing as well in school as I'd like. Now we must remember that "not doing as well as I'd like" for me is different than for a lot of other kids. I'm not afraid of failing, I'm just afraid of not making all or mostly As. Still, it's stressful for me.
Moving on to the writing itself.
So I've had several problems. Largest: I'm having horrible trouble getting started. Reminder to self: it has to start somewhere. The important thing is to get going. The beginning can be rewritten, replaced, whatever later on. Another concern: first-person vs third, present tense vs past. Reminder to self: I'll have just as much trouble getting started writing in one as in another. I just have to go, and later I can decide if it needs to be revised for another tense/POV. Another concern... and while this hasn't consciously bothered me as much, it's probably the most daunting: I have trouble with the setting, trying to make it realistic and unique. I feel like I need to study up on building materials, what materials/foods/etc are available in what sorts of climates, etc. etc. This is harder to solve. I want to tell myself that it's my world, so things don't have to relate exactly to real world climate zones or anything like that, but I do want the science in my world to be sound where magic doesn't actually interfere. But I do suppose that these are also edits that can be made later. Better to write it and have to edit some details that don't make strict sense than to have nothing to edit, right?
So. Yes. I need to get on it. I have my opening line. Just gotta go from there.
Lyss' stare burned between his shoulder blades.
So this is going to be a small part pep talk and a large part beat-self-over-head-kick-ass-into-motion.
I need to write. Not just anything. Aerlun's story. Daemien's story. I've been getting this vague feeling lately that I'm getting closer to pushing through the barrier that's keeping me from just getting up and going on this story. Well, I need to force my hand and push it now.
I'm not in an awesome place right now. I'm not in a bad place... I mean I'm really lucky in general. I'm in college, I've got Danny (and I couldn't ask for more than him), and I don't have to worry about money... not really, anyway. But I haven't been doing any substantial writing in ages. For my workshop submission, I did a quick edit of "For a Soul" and submitted it... which is a good piece for the workshop, I think, but disappointing when I intended to write something new. I'm also not doing as well in school as I'd like. Now we must remember that "not doing as well as I'd like" for me is different than for a lot of other kids. I'm not afraid of failing, I'm just afraid of not making all or mostly As. Still, it's stressful for me.
Moving on to the writing itself.
So I've had several problems. Largest: I'm having horrible trouble getting started. Reminder to self: it has to start somewhere. The important thing is to get going. The beginning can be rewritten, replaced, whatever later on. Another concern: first-person vs third, present tense vs past. Reminder to self: I'll have just as much trouble getting started writing in one as in another. I just have to go, and later I can decide if it needs to be revised for another tense/POV. Another concern... and while this hasn't consciously bothered me as much, it's probably the most daunting: I have trouble with the setting, trying to make it realistic and unique. I feel like I need to study up on building materials, what materials/foods/etc are available in what sorts of climates, etc. etc. This is harder to solve. I want to tell myself that it's my world, so things don't have to relate exactly to real world climate zones or anything like that, but I do want the science in my world to be sound where magic doesn't actually interfere. But I do suppose that these are also edits that can be made later. Better to write it and have to edit some details that don't make strict sense than to have nothing to edit, right?
So. Yes. I need to get on it. I have my opening line. Just gotta go from there.
Lyss' stare burned between his shoulder blades.
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