hullo

I've noticed that the last of my shyness has evaporated. I'm not nervous on the register. Talking to people all day is great. I'm even starting to like phones sometimes. Not for like hourlong conversations... but if I'm walking home from the metro by myself, it's great to call someone and be like "WHAT UP I'M BORED ENTERTAIN ME."

I have my schedule for the next week, I don't work tomorrow, I'm pretty sure I'm getting paid $8 an hour... life's grand.

I'm gonna call my grandmother. I haven't talked to her in ages, and I think I have a name for Gene. Grandgenie. XD I like it. Yay.

Yup, that is all. Yay for a short post! (collective sigh of relief)

yay

So I'm not a total chicken. That definitely feels good.

Can anyone tell me why it's so hard to tell someone you like him? It's like... you don't want to do it unless you're fairly certain he likes you back... or at least won't be freaked out and stop talking to you. But I don't know why it's like that.

If you're wondering where in the hell that came from: I told Egan I like him. I wanted to... but the real spurring thing was him asking about my livejournal. Because I would much rather him hear it from me than read it here. That just seems so stupid. I broke up with one guy with a note, and I don't want to do something that little again. I mean, it was a heartfelt note, but he asked me out to my face... the least I can do is break up with him to his.

I'd asked Yuka if she thought he liked me, and she said yeah. Not definitively, but you know. She's so cute, and she thinks I'm so cute, hahaha. She poked her head out to tell Egan it was dinnertime and then was like, "I'll leave you two alone," with that sly best friend look on her face.

Whatever. I told my mom when I got home... because I tell my family everything, it isn't even funny. My family knows I'm not a virgin, I told my mom about making out with Joe shortly after... But I'm pretty open even with people who aren't family, so is that really surprising? I mean, with Yuka, with... any good friends. Aze, duh, she knows everything about me. And Egan. It was great that the conversation didn't even change after I told him. Heh.

Hm. Sometimes I feel like an idiot for journaling all this stuff. I mean, outside of Aze and maybe Erin/Billy, I doubt anyone really cares, and that's fine. It's good to read back on old stuff and see how much I've changed. And it's good to collect my thoughts.

My parents have always told me not to post anything I don't want read, though, and I probably don't. There are things I'd tell a person to her face that I wouldn't post in here... I dunno.

Okay, I'm done rambling for the night. I'm gonna go troll for entertainment.