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[karriezai]

Still not writing.

I reread Graceling and it was perhaps even more wonderful the second time through, but the amazing characterization gave me a huge inferiority complex.

I tried to express to Danny how much it sucks that writing is such a big part of me but it's only a frustration to him. He didn't respond. He did tell me, when I tried to express the fact that I wrote way more stories to completion when I had real life friends reading them consistently and caring about my writing, that if I blame him for me not writing a book then we will end up breaking up. Nice stretch there.

I've been thinking about the fact that he doesn't care about my writing though, and how hard that is, and wondering... if I met someone who really did care... what would happen?

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Comments

[kattius.livejournal.com]

I think I'm going to have to read Graceling when I'm finished with the mass of books I've got to get through (and have enough money to buy books once I've got these DVDs I've been waiting on forever). You and Hayden made it sound really good on SynTru!

As for Danny, I don't know much about your relationship so I'm sorry if I cross the line when I say anything, but... I don't know, it seems to me he could be a lot more supportive about it. :/ I mean, I've never been in a relationship myself, and I'm not about to anytime soon, but... ideally, I'd make sure my partner knew what was important to me and how much it was important to me. Like he could at least be a bit more supportive by not treating it as a frustration for him?

I kind of wish the writing partners stuff had kicked off a little better on SynTru, although I don't know how to accurately describe what I want to be to people because I'm not so much as looking for a writer as I am offering help as a mentor/beta, but... even then, I'm still just happy to read over things for people and tell them what I like about it. Basically, if you ever do want to send anything to anyone and see what they think about it, I'd be willing to do it. :D I do it for a fair few of my friends already, even some online ones, so I'd be happy--even thrilled, actually, I love your writing now that I've managed to sit down and read some of it--to do it for you, if it'd help you write more!

[keptawake.livejournal.com]

Yuussss, read Graceling! (Apparently I'm going to keep throwing books at you until you've read everything I have. Want to throw any books at me?)

Danny's... a jerk sometimes. He has very sweet moments very occasionally, but he can be hugely insensitive too. I do love him and he loves me. We've been together nearly four years. But part of me does wonder. Because it would be extraordinarily difficult to extricate myself from this relationship now if I wanted to. We live together and I'm a huge part of his family now, like they're my own. I couldn't afford rent elsewhere at this point, and there's no campus housing for seniors. We share a bank account and our cell phones are on the same plan. That doesn't mean I want to leave him, it just means that I worry that if it ever came to it I wouldn't want to just because it would be too difficult. x_x; And I've had a guy writing friend before; Danny was a teensy bit jealous, but he needn't have been because there was zero attraction whatsoever. So maybe what I really need are just writing friends I can turn to. Not sure.

And that's such a great offer, and so sweet of you... Perhaps I will have to send you some writing. I think I have... two or three chapters of Blood and Heat done at this point if you want to read them. It might help me figure out why I'm feeling so blocked and unable to continue. (Brutal honesty would be ideal; if you can find what the hell I'm doing wrong I'd be eternally grateful.)

[kattius.livejournal.com]

Yay! My student loan will turn into books rather than vodka (although I think cheap vodka is cheaper than books, but less rewarding)! Mostly I tend to go READ AMERICAN GODS but I like Neil Gaiman's writing purely for the amount of mythology he draws on and the fact it's like reading a dream, if that makes any sense. It's a surreal quality. Other than that I honestly don't know. Most of my adult books have either been things of specific interest (so, Ancient Greek/Roman/Celtic historical fiction) or things reccomended to me by other people. Actually, even the things of specific interest were reccomended to me by my dad. :|

Yeah, I've noticed elements of him being a jerk when I've been reading your LJ posts, but I'm sure the good must outweigh the bad for you! Especially if you've been with him for four years! Having a network of writing friends tends to be a good idea, though--again a reason why I kind of wished the writing chats worked better in our favours, or we had more writing discussion and so on in regards to SynTru. I mean, posting writing is really good but talking about it and giving one another tips is really helpful as well. (Man, I've failed so hard with the writing chats lately.)

I would LOVE to read more of Blood and Heat! I was looking through your LJ the other day and noticed the very old version (from 2005?) in your writing index. I'm curious and tempted to read it, and see what's changed between that and the rewrite. Or just how it's improved. But yeah, I'd definitely be willing to read Blood and Heat for you and help you out if I can. :D Loved what I read of it so far.

[keptawake.livejournal.com]

Yay! I emailed you .doc versions. I could post them on SynTru, but if you find something to mark up it'll be much easier this way.

Hm. I wonder if there are any creative ways to make chats more interesting that we've not thought of? I've noticed that writing endeavors always seem to go better during NaNoWriMo. allyear_sprints works better during that month, though I think they have more success than our writing chats during the rest of the year. There's just... more intensity that month. Hard to bring that to a year-round community, I guess.

I have Good Omens. Haven't read American Gods yet, but I think I'll see if it's on the iBooks store yet...

[kattius.livejournal.com]

YES! One of my favourite parts of Word is being able to highlight stuff and write little comments on the sides and it sounds so sad when I say that but I don't enough opportunities to do it. I'm going to open them up and have a skim through them now, but I'll sit down and read them properly in the morning, because I'll be able to focus on them better. I'm really excited though.

I keep wondering if it's worth having a go at doing something on AIM, because that was the more popular option although it shut some people out due to not having the messenger. But then again, some people are reluctant to use Chatango, or find it annyoing, so I don't know? I can definitely understand them being used more during NaNoWriMo. There's more of a reason to have sprints and wars then, I think.

Good Omens is a good one! Mind you, I'm biased, I've read it so much that the only book I own that's in a worse state is the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, because the front cover's come off that one. American Gods is very, very long (not quite as long as the Order of the Phoenix but it clocks in at about 635 pages) and there's so much stuff that I know I've missed stuff still even on the third readthrough.