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karriezaiSo work is being retarded but what else is new? They didn't even look at my schedule request for next week, just scheduled me whenever they felt like it. Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday morning, and also Saturday night. Only Thursday morning is a time I said I'm available for. I was going to forgive Saturday night and worry about getting Wednesday and Friday fixed, but then I realized the Plumbers' Ball is that night and Dennis' family paid ridiculous money to get tickets for me and Danny. I have to go. So tomorrow I'll have to include that in my pestering. They piss me off.
Also caught Danny smoking yesterday. Or to be more technical I smelled it on him, and it was too strong to just be standing around smokers. It was on his face, haha. So I was texting Morgan and mentioned that he smelled, and she said something about him always smelling when he's around Aaron, which made me go "What?" So I asked her about how much he smoked, and she told me... she overestimated some, which wasn't that surprising since she only works with him once, sometimes twice a week, but it gave me a more honest idea of it. So I showed him the conversation and then we talked about it. It was a productive talk. I basically told him that I know he doesn't like to talk about it and likes to just brush it aside, but if I don't remind him every time how much it upsets me, then he'll come home smelling like a cigarette more and more often. And how I read that even one or two cigarettes a week can give you similar health issues to a regular smoker, though of course on a much lower level.
He said he'd try to cut back a little more. I compared his smoking once in a while to me finding the motivation to go to the gym regularly, and how I definitely started doing it for him, and even though I do it for me too a little now, I still think about him every time: What workout would get me the best results for Danny? Stuff like that. I asked him if it's really harder for him not to smoke now that he's not actually dependent anymore than it is for me to convince myself to go to the gym regularly. He complimented my willpower like crazy, but that means little to me unless it motivates him to actually stick to cutting back a little more.
Haven't missed any school except when they cancelled it for snow, though, so that's going well. Meh. And I am doing well with the gym, so far, so that's good. I'm recording it in my planner.
Also caught Danny smoking yesterday. Or to be more technical I smelled it on him, and it was too strong to just be standing around smokers. It was on his face, haha. So I was texting Morgan and mentioned that he smelled, and she said something about him always smelling when he's around Aaron, which made me go "What?" So I asked her about how much he smoked, and she told me... she overestimated some, which wasn't that surprising since she only works with him once, sometimes twice a week, but it gave me a more honest idea of it. So I showed him the conversation and then we talked about it. It was a productive talk. I basically told him that I know he doesn't like to talk about it and likes to just brush it aside, but if I don't remind him every time how much it upsets me, then he'll come home smelling like a cigarette more and more often. And how I read that even one or two cigarettes a week can give you similar health issues to a regular smoker, though of course on a much lower level.
He said he'd try to cut back a little more. I compared his smoking once in a while to me finding the motivation to go to the gym regularly, and how I definitely started doing it for him, and even though I do it for me too a little now, I still think about him every time: What workout would get me the best results for Danny? Stuff like that. I asked him if it's really harder for him not to smoke now that he's not actually dependent anymore than it is for me to convince myself to go to the gym regularly. He complimented my willpower like crazy, but that means little to me unless it motivates him to actually stick to cutting back a little more.
Haven't missed any school except when they cancelled it for snow, though, so that's going well. Meh. And I am doing well with the gym, so far, so that's good. I'm recording it in my planner.
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Smoking
1/2/09 03:11 (UTC)