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10/9/08 00:55I'm starting to really miss Danny. It's not really that he's in Vegas; when I think about it, aside from a little extra time on Sunday, I really wouldn't have seen him that much yet anyway. Sunday night through Wednesday evening I probably won't see him at all, usually, which sucks to be honest. I imagine I'll be naughty and stay a couple Monday nights too in the end. But anyway, what makes it so hard is not being able to talk much. And when we do talk, it's mostly him, because obviously what he's doing is more exciting at the moment. He's in conferences all day, and when he gets done I'm probably asleep since it's three hours earlier for him. These things run late. Tonight he won't be done until 11, which will be 2 for me. Blah.
So it's getting to me a little. I got my first genuine urge to draw him something in quite a while. Since February. That was when I drew the picture of us kissing as Zelda and Link. At the time he just didn't seem to care much. Actually, in retrospect it still doesn't seem like he cared much. He said he wanted it framed but then he just forgot about it. And I would drop hints but it never came to anything. It made me so upset. Finally I just went and got the frame myself. And I seem to remember I wanted him to hang it, but it just sat for a while until I got very upset and was tempted to just throw the damn thing away. He finally hung it because I kind of blew up at him (which for me unfortunately means tears; I hate that my temper makes me cry). So yes, I had no urge to draw him anything after that, which means I had no urge to draw. Drawings, for me, usually mean gifts.
Trouble is I don't know what to draw him. The sketchpad I bought today is little and the colored pencils are only 12 different colors, which means it'll have to be something simple. But that's okay as long as I find something good. I'm thinking maybe something that involves dice, you know, very Vegas. Perhaps a lowcut boob top. Something playful but serious. Maybe a close up of a girl playing videogames (just boobs and hands holding controller) wearing a lowcut Vegas-y top that says "I miss(ed) you". I may try it, depending on how it comes out. If not, I'll probably return to the tried and true superhero/videogame character route. Haha.
So I was downstairs doing laundry. I came up here to shower while I wait on the dryer, but then I realized my only towels are in the dryer. Hurray. By now they may be dry though, I'll check in a couple minutes.
But I need to get checks for Chevy Chase. I have $270 in my purse right now, roughly. I hate carrying that much cash. Plus, I may have a lot of money, but I still feel broke if my checking isn't pretty high. Blech. I bet I'll make money this weekend though. I really hope so, because I want to start saving hardcore again. It's funny how spoiled I am already. I make $70 and I'm like, meh, I guess that's okay... But 2 days of $70 and 2 days of $100 in a week makes $340, which I was hardpressed to make in TWO weeks at Starbucks. Not to mention the fact that I actually made $130 or so yesterday night, and my other three shifts are hot nights this week, so I could well make around $500. We'll see.
So it's getting to me a little. I got my first genuine urge to draw him something in quite a while. Since February. That was when I drew the picture of us kissing as Zelda and Link. At the time he just didn't seem to care much. Actually, in retrospect it still doesn't seem like he cared much. He said he wanted it framed but then he just forgot about it. And I would drop hints but it never came to anything. It made me so upset. Finally I just went and got the frame myself. And I seem to remember I wanted him to hang it, but it just sat for a while until I got very upset and was tempted to just throw the damn thing away. He finally hung it because I kind of blew up at him (which for me unfortunately means tears; I hate that my temper makes me cry). So yes, I had no urge to draw him anything after that, which means I had no urge to draw. Drawings, for me, usually mean gifts.
Trouble is I don't know what to draw him. The sketchpad I bought today is little and the colored pencils are only 12 different colors, which means it'll have to be something simple. But that's okay as long as I find something good. I'm thinking maybe something that involves dice, you know, very Vegas. Perhaps a lowcut boob top. Something playful but serious. Maybe a close up of a girl playing videogames (just boobs and hands holding controller) wearing a lowcut Vegas-y top that says "I miss(ed) you". I may try it, depending on how it comes out. If not, I'll probably return to the tried and true superhero/videogame character route. Haha.
So I was downstairs doing laundry. I came up here to shower while I wait on the dryer, but then I realized my only towels are in the dryer. Hurray. By now they may be dry though, I'll check in a couple minutes.
But I need to get checks for Chevy Chase. I have $270 in my purse right now, roughly. I hate carrying that much cash. Plus, I may have a lot of money, but I still feel broke if my checking isn't pretty high. Blech. I bet I'll make money this weekend though. I really hope so, because I want to start saving hardcore again. It's funny how spoiled I am already. I make $70 and I'm like, meh, I guess that's okay... But 2 days of $70 and 2 days of $100 in a week makes $340, which I was hardpressed to make in TWO weeks at Starbucks. Not to mention the fact that I actually made $130 or so yesterday night, and my other three shifts are hot nights this week, so I could well make around $500. We'll see.