karriezai: ([hp] [puff] not a powerpuff)
Oh my god I'm going to kill this man.

So of course he's not going to stop posting on Morgan's Facebook completely; this is understandable. Balance would be nice is all, not posting on hers more than anyone else's, you know. (Though he stopped posting entirely after our conversation, hasn't posted on anyone's up until today, and it's Morgan's again, so maybe it's NOT okay. I don't know.)

But what does he comment on? The poem she wrote. "Best poem ever." Fuck him.

I posted on his wall: "Jerk. Way to go reading some other girl's writing."

To be honest, I'm not overly mad. I'm just... I dunno, I can't believe he'd be that retarded. He KNOWS how much it bothers me that he doesn't give a crap about my writing. I could kick him IN THE BALLS. I don't even understand how he can be so insensitive and stupid. Is he trying to upset me?

When will this be over?

It's something new every other fricken day.

I want to go beat the crap out of something.

ETA: Talked to him. Made me madder how much it took to get him to understand why it was an insensitive thing to do. The difference between a short Facebook poem that he reads voluntarily and me trying to get him to read or listen to me talk about my writing without being totally begrudging... blah. It was a Michael Jackson poem, and I understand that that's why he read and liked it, and I understand that if it had been someone else who posted it then it wouldn't have been a big deal, so maybe it's not exactly fair. But under the circumstances, yes, it upset me. And I just wish he could understand that without me having to spell it out.

I also started to express to him that I wish that I could just randomly do something like that that he would appreciate. I meant it as... it bothers me that Morgan just wrote this Michael Jackson poem (composed of an amalgam of his lyrics) for the hell of it and he loved it, but I've never done anything spontaneous like that that he's loved. But he just took the beginning of my sentiment and interjected with, "But you don't! Your statuses aren't anything that makes me want to comment on them!" or something along those lines. Which, of course, doesn't help. I didn't realize my life was so boring to him. He accused me of making all of my status updates complaints about him, which isn't true at all. There have been some, certainly, but also lots of oddball ones and lots of stress venting about school. He didn't even comment on the one about me wearing my Hooters outfit to work for Halloween. I understand that he's so close to me he knows what's going on in my life. Maybe it's not worth commenting on. But whatever. Just... going back over everything--the statuses of hers he has commented on, the ones of mine he hasn't--I can't help but be bothered. Like this is worth commenting on more than anything I've said in the last two weeks?: "Yay for morning rushes. All I want is a sweatshirt and venti latte."

This is going to drive me nuts. I know at this point that I'm overreacting. But it just keeps building. With him saying he's sorry and then going on to do something even more insensitive. FUCK.
karriezai: ([avatar] sweetheart/bitterheart)
Morgan reactivated her Facebook. Talking to her makes me pretty deeply sad, but I think it'll pass. I suppose if we want to be real friends again we'll have to sit down and talk... but we'll see.

Bit of TMI )

Anyway. Suffice to say. I did not sleep at all last night, and I was run down all day at my internship. My fifth graders were asking me what was wrong with my eyes and I had to explain I didn't get any sleep and my eyes were protesting, but a couple of the intuitive ones did not miss the fact that puffy eyes come from crying.

Fuck my life right now.

It'll get better. But I think... this might be the lowest I've been... maybe ever, and if not, certainly in a long while.

blargh.

25/10/10 23:18
karriezai: ([misc] [scar] omgwtf?)
Learned today that Morgan asked Danny if he would consider leaving me. Me being the person I am, what disturbed me most about this was the simple fact that Danny's just now telling me even though I asked him last week if he'd told me everything since I know his tendency for leaving things out. I'm a little weirded out that Morgan would ask it, but not angry. I guess I kind of get it. I wouldn't do it personally, mainly because my thought process would go something like this: It would hurt her so much... but I want to know... but do I really want to be with a guy who'd leave his girlfriend of four years like that...? Best not to ask. Roughly.

If I'm mad at her for anything, it's for blaming her ruptured ovarian cyst (that the doctors said is stress-induced) on Danny. What an evil thing to do. I felt and feel horrible for her being in pain and having to go to the hospital, but you don't blame that sort of thing on someone else. It wasn't Danny's fault. And who could have known she would react so strongly to the whole thing?

Anyway, it's fine. I told Danny I need to be able to trust he's being honest with me, especially when I ask him if he's left anything out. He said there were more feelings than his involved and he didn't think it was okay to tell me that and betray Morgan's trust, but I told him, "That's something I deserve to know." And it's true. Even though I'm not mad at her over it--even if I had been mad--it's something he should have told me. She's my friend too, and I have the right to evaluate our friendship based on her willingness to take my boyfriend. -sigh-

He also said I would have been angry and blamed him despite the fact that he told her no. In response I laughed. "Let me ask you something. Have I, during this whole thing, gotten angry?" "No." "I'm not angry now, I wouldn't have been then. You should have told me." I basically made it clear that in the future I want him to tell me everything.

Note to self: need to find gelatin-free Jello to make Jello shots for Koontz's party on Saturday.

bleargh.

9/10/10 01:09
karriezai: (Default)
Sometimes I just want to kick Danny somewhere unpleasant. )

In other news, one of the hostesses at work tonight had a seizure. Apparently she's epileptic, so it's not entirely unusual for her, but it freaked the hell out of everyone else, especially since she fell and hit her head pretty hard. (ETA: She's fine, just embarrassed--not that she should feel embarrassed, but you know how it is. I swear I'm not a callous excuse for a human being, but I already knew she was alright so concern didn't make its way into my entry when I wrote this. It was, after all, one in the morning.) It was a long night, but I made $129, and I needed it. We're looking at houses now because Dennis' brother is raising the rent to $700 plus the $200 we pay in electric for this craphole we live in, which just isn't worth it for a house with no central air or heat and with a leaky ceiling.

Also. Synopsis for Homesake:

"In Somnion, men don't have magic anymore. Legends say that they displeased the gods, and that their magical gifts were taken away as punishment--but the gods left magic in nature as a reminder of what mankind lost. This world is home to Grey, a deserted soldier from the King's Steel in Lumina, and to Kayden, who defies legend with the dragon blood that runs in his veins and gives him the ability to control fire. When these two men come together, Kayden's need for protection on his journey north provides the perfect cover for Grey to hide from any who might try to track him down after his desertion--but what starts mostly as convenience turns into a cause that Grey is deeply entrenched in. Together, these young men will awaken the lost dragons, and along the way discover disturbing truths about the king Grey deserted and the kingdom where his loyalty still lies."

I went to a writing meetup in Columbia yesterday evening, and it was fantastic. It's for writers of YA fiction, which Homesake is even if I don't always write YA. The people are great, and atmosphere really fit for me, and I'm excited to go back. I don't think I'll even bother with trying the Silver Spring group again now that I've found a group with such great chemistry.

lalala

5/10/10 21:18
karriezai: ([nano] plot bunnies)
Ooh. Pretty LJ header.

I'm currently watching Ever After and avoiding things I should actually be doing, as per usual. Such as: I should be scanning in my driver's license to complete my egg donor application. ($10,000 for my eggs if I'm accepted and matched to a recipient!) I should also be piecing together materials/plans/crap/etc. for the upcoming assignments in my methods classes that I need to translate into class with my fifth graders. I was going to try using the first chapter of The Hunger Games for my reading DRA, but I think I'll change it to a short story from one of my two collections. Which I'll need to bring with me tomorrow to plan with Alice.

For my reference, I need to get the following done by the end of this week (my full week at Whetstone): collect two writing samples each from the two students I chose for profiles in Language Arts; complete my DRA for Reading with a small group of kids; pick at least two kids for Math (at least one with a recorded disability of some kind) to assess for understanding in a concept area and plan steps toward addressing any gaps in understanding; conduct Social Studies interview with students; complete midsemester PBA; get photocopy of Language Arts packet from one of the other interns.

ALSO. Print contract for Mirage Games, as if I haven't let that sit long enough. And finish up this egg donor application process. Sooner that's done, the better.

I waver in confidence with the development of Homesake as a young adult novel. I have a name now for all three of Grey's swords (and thus all three of the novels). I'm unsure about this "Grey" thing now because he will start the book as Roan now that I'm starting with his acceptance into the King's Steel. He will still want an alias, but will he be honest with Kayden? Or will he think it's best to just introduce himself as Grey so they aren't overheard in private using his real name?

Also. Stuff going down with roommates making life more interesting/stressful. Dennis' brother and sister-in-law decided to raise the rent. Dennis doesn't have to pay anything (he never has, but at first he made it sound like he did), but Danny, Justin, and I are each expected to pay $350. For Danny and Justin, that's a $100 bump. For me, $200. For Danny and me, it's not worth it. Rent plus electric will be $900 for the two of us. So we're looking very seriously into moving out, even have cousin Justin on board to rent a room with his girlfriend so we can afford a better place. It's the down payment that worries me at the moment. Egg donation could really help, but only if by some miracle I get the fastest process possible. (I really should scan my license in.) There are some nice houses for sale in a really decent area for around $150,000. Alone, we couldn't afford it, but with roomies... definitely.

And if you're wondering why $900/month isn't worth it to live in a house, let me explain: it's a house with no central air or heat, with a roof that leaks, with a driveway that never gets plowed in the winter when it snows, and with various other defects. (They still won't give us a key to the garage. Where do you get off charging that much for this shithole and not letting us use the garage?)

Blah.
karriezai: ([asoiaf] life's not a song)
I got an email from a guy saying he's the lead developer at a company working on a new MMORPG, and that they were looking for writers to design the story. He hoped that I would put out his opportunity at SynTru in case any members might be interested.

I'm naturally cynical of this, of course, but it sounds very professional and there's an attached website that looks pretty legit. I searched for any similar hoaxes or scams and found none. If anything, I expect he might be looking for cheap labor, but I guess I don't really mind that if I get real credit. It could be a way to break out, if it works out. Of course there's no guarantee, but hey, it'd be fun enough that I don't think I'd consider it wasted effort or anything like that. So I'm pursuing it for the moment, but I'm being cautious. Sending things that I can prove are mine (Honorable Mentions from WotF) or things I don't terribly mind losing.

School is going well, internship-wise. I'm not looking forward to the uni workload, though. My mentor is the best lady ever, and we match so well. She loves me just as much as I love her. She's super lenient, but I'm really serious about this so I'm not slacking. I'm going when I'm not required and everything. And I'm taking over as many lessons as I can even though it's early on. It's fun, plus it's practice. And the kids need to see me as a teacher before takeover in the spring.

Roommates are being a pain in the ass. We made a list of shit they do that pisses us off. It's pretty long. We've been ignoring it for too long, and we're going to have to talk it out.

I'll leave it there for now.
karriezai: ([avatar] halp!)
I am in such a slump. I just have no desire to write. Or at least zero motivation. Or, well, I'm not sure how you describe it--all I mean is that no writing is getting done, and I'm super stuck.

I took my final yesterday in MATH111. I skipped SO MUCH class--honestly, out of 28 days I only went for around seven or eight, including exam days. I took two quizzes (got a 10/10 on each) and got some form of participation points for one day, so I'm optimistically hoping that I have 25 quiz/participation points. I got a 95 on the first exam, and I'm not sure about the second exam but I know I got one question set wrong so I'm estimating an 85. IF that is correct, given that I need 360 points to get a B in the class and the final is worth 150... oh crap. Okay, so I'm pretty much guaranteed a C. Bah. That'll be my first C... ever. D: I mean, it's possible I got higher on the second exam, but even still I'd have to ace the final and I know for a fact that I made a silly little rounding mistake that will probably lose me at least some credit on a couple questions.

Blah. Oh well, I guess.

Back to writing... I'm changing Blood and Heat around, putting more focus on Grey and changing the locale to Duos instead of the west. But that involves, well, a lot of change. And development of Duos that I hadn't gotten around to yet. And my phobia: making a realistic kingdom. It's hard for me to figure out how to make a king evil when he still has enough respect to BE king. -headdesk- Plus, I'm thinking about starting earlier, maybe even back when Grey was accepted into the king's guard, but I'm afraid of putting that much of a gap between the beginning of the book and introducing Kayden. Grey's becoming more of the main character, which is cool, but Kayden is still supposed to share the spotlight.

And then there's how in the hell to introduce Kella. I want Grey to meet Kayden first, and Kella could complicate things. Unless I did something really out there, like making Kella a friend of Grey's to start with--which would introduce its own problems but could be a lot of fun if I worked it out right... It would make Kella even less trustworthy. It would be very difficult to do well though. -headdeskheaddesk-

Danny and I are going to Ocean City tonight. It keeps getting shorter; bad timing all around, and as mad as I am at his work, it would have been easier to work out if I didn't have summer classes to limit my own time. But at least my limitations were solid, they didn't move around or appear out of nowhere. We originally scheduled a vacation for this Tuesday-Thursday and paid for a hotel by the beach, which would have been amazing, until his work decided to announce that his inventory would be on Thursday. So we moved it to this weekend, but then his FIFA tournament was moved to this weekend. It was supposed to be Sunday, so we were going to leave yesterday after my final. Leaving around noon, we would have gotten there with PLENTY of time yesterday and then all day today. But then he realized, no, his FIFA thing was today, so we have to wait for him to get home so we can go to Ocean City, so we'll be lucky if we get there while it's still light out... We can stay tomorrow, but it's still less time, and it pisses me off. D:

Eh. We're watching True Blood, and I'm really enjoying it. I really like Eric now and I'm basically rooting for Bill to disappear or die and for Sookie and Eric to end up together... lol.
karriezai: ([asoiaf] armored courtesy)
Skipped class today to pick up the new iPhones in Virginia. Got there not long after 9. We talked to them and they said iPhones on each shipment are specific to a particular customer and ours hadn't arrived yet. Which sounded stupid since they had some in the back, just not ours. Why be so damn particular? We preordered, so we should be able to show up and take iPhones home if they're there. But we went to Tysons, ate, watched Knight and Day (which I really enjoyed), and went back around 1. Still no iPhones.

Danny was an asshole to the employees. As annoyed as I was, I knew it wasn't their fault. They were just following company policy, and if you want to yell at someone, it should be the company. Can't blame the employees for not wanting to break policy and risk losing their jobs. But Danny kept harassing them. He claimed that if they really wanted a satisfied customer then they would just give us a pair of the iPhones in the back since obviously the customers they were assigned to didn't care enough to come pick them up.

I get why he's annoyed. He went out there last Tuesday morning for preorders. Got there before they opened to make sure he'd be first so he could get his iPhone right away on the day they came out. But it doesn't matter, because they shipped in some random ass order, so ours didn't get there right away. Yes, it's frustrating, but don't freaking take it out on the employees. I don't get it. Danny's in retail too. He knows that there are policies at Gamestop that he can't break without risking his job. And he's a manager, not just an employee.

So we left just before 2 because I have to work tonight and I didn't want to get stuck in traffic and then barely have time to get dressed and go to work. Got home at 2:30, started watching a Smallville episode, and then they called. Our iPhones came in. So Danny turned around and went back. Lucky him, he gets to sit through traffic. He took my phone, and I'm just realizing how much I use it. It's my napping alarm. Now if I want to nap I actually have to do it in the bedroom. Not that I really have time. I have to leave in just over half an hour. And I'm doing this. Lovely.

dude!

6/3/10 15:45
karriezai: ([avatar] azula people person)
Day 5. By age, who is your youngest character? Oldest? How about “youngest” and “oldest” in terms of when you created them?

By age, this is a tricky question to answer. Aerlun and Daemien are both young at the beginning of their stories. But by the end, they're the oldest in a way; they live three lifetimes, hundreds of years apart. Aerlun is ten at the beginning of his story, and Daemien is around fourteen. Kayden is the youngest at the end of his story; he'll be about twenty after the events of Blood and Heat. And once I finish the current short story I'm trying to work on, I'll start a book centering around the main character Roren's kids, but I haven't developed them yet; I just know they'll be in their early teens, they'll be named Rory and Darian, they'll be male and female twins, and Rory (the girl) will be the source and Darian will be the channeler. As for the oldest by age, that could be Aerlun and Daemien or it could be Grey, who is 26. And that's not including fandom characters. In Elemental Force, Naizhen is 16, so she could also count as youngest.

Youngest and oldest in terms of creation are much easier. Aerlun is easily the oldest still in use. Roren is the youngest who has been actually developed, though his kids are sort of twinklings in my eye, lol -- I guess you could say they're still in the womb, so to speak.

Yeah I'm weird.

So last night... )
karriezai: ([witticisms] [house] lay eggs)
So work, school, Danny, and Stories have kept me too busy to think about posting. This summer session is almost over, and thank god because my junior english teacher is the worst teacher I've had in my entire life. At first I thought she was just annoying, but not the worst; recently I've decided that she is, in fact, the absolute worst, no doubts about it.

Ranting about the evil teacher )

So that's incredibly frustrating. Enraging, really.

My other summer class is much nicer. More appropriate, I think. There's an appropriate amount of work--we've had two projects that require out-of-class work, plus normal class stuff (keep in mind these are only 6 week courses)--and she grades more normally, if not more relaxed than normal.

Stories has slowed down considerably but I haven't lost hope. I do wish I had more methods for speeding things up there, but it's difficult. I don't know what else I can add. I need to send out an activity check. I think I'll go do that.

And work stuff. I think I'll skip that for now.
karriezai: ([asoiaf] dark wings dark words)
Okay few things I wanna cover, better list them first because when I get into one I might forget the others.

* Summer class
* Extreme work suckage
* How writing goes
* Another urge to make a website

School is easy. Basically I had my first summer class this morning. It's small. The teacher has the craziest chalk board writing--by that I mean that she writes fast as hell, but it's all very neat and straight, the letters bold and easy to read. The class is going to be easy--it's like geometric concepts up through 8th grade with an emphasis on ways of teaching them. Which is nice. I'm only concerned about getting bored or deciding I can afford to miss too many classes.

Also, since I'm in summer classes, I can go to the gym! I'll have to make use of that. I've been seriously slacking lately.

And Hooters dumps another load of crap on my head. )

Writing, or more accurately, worldbuilding. )

Writing community idea. )

Um so yeah. Danny's nearly done listening to Mistborn. The first one, that is. It's exciting. He didn't like it much at first, and he still thinks it's kind of slow I think, but he really likes the characters now. He said if we can find the other two to download, he'll listen to them too.

He came to visit me on my crap work night. I really appreciated it. He can be so sweet. And he brought Dennis and Heather, and Dennis tipped me $20 on a $30 bill, which was also really sweet and made me so appreciative of our roommates. We have our issues at times but we're all really great people.
karriezai: ([kh] [riku] i will go mad)
So. My Comm TA fixed my paper grade; that's the yay. I just finished studying for my comm final. I don't think it'll be too rough assuming he doesn't suddenly change the format to short answer rather than multiple choice, haha. Meh.

Work is driving me up the wall. I really want to quit. I tried again at Fridays today and the manager told me to come back tomorrow when the GM is there because he vaguely remembers that she was interested in me. I'm not too hopeful though. Fridays hours are just too long for me. They only have a swing shift on weekends. I'm not working until 2 am weeknights, particularly not this summer while I have 8 am classes all week. I also went to Starbucks but the two I went to are not actively hiring. Tomorrow after my final I might go try some of the ones near campus. It's really what I'd prefer. The money isn't always as good but it's more regular and less heartache. Or maybe I can just do Starbucks (if they even hire me) through summer session I and then try Fridays again for summer session II when it'll be more manageable. Or maybe there's another restaurant I can try. Damned if I know. Maybe I'll apply at Cornerstone and the Thirsty Turtle or something. Anything.

As for what happened at work that was the final straw to break the camel's back. )

So yes. Bucketloads of just shit.
karriezai: ([portal] followed by death)
So I had my bio final today and I already know better than to expect an A. I'll hope for a B. I messed up the phylogeny of plants -- not completely, but probably enough to get half credit or less on the question -- which also means that certain related true or false questions are wrong. And I didn't know the difference between conservation and preservation, which will be up to 4 points off, plus at least one of the two related true or false questions. And I may get credit off for the question about accidentally or intentionally introduced invasive species since I kind of... winged it. I can get up to 30 points off and still make a B, so like I said, I can hope for that. But an A's pretty much out of the question. Especially with their damned tricky true or false questions.

And, in addition to that. When I got back to my car I had a ticket. Freaking $75. Because I parked in lot Z instead of lot 1 without noticing. And to be honest, had I noticed, it probably wouldn't have occurred to me that it could get me a ticket since they're both in the same area and I'm not even sure what the difference is, why they gave them separate lot designations. But it irks me because I've never gotten a ticket before. I got a warning ticket, but it was two years ago before I even started at the school. So they couldn't cut me a little break? Danny said to go complain and see if I can get it reduced. I mean, parking at an expired meter is only $15. What's the freaking difference? I don't have high hopes, but I'll try. I tried to do it online but the idiot parking attendant or whatever put my plates as Maryland when they're Florida. So when I put them in as Maryland, it says there's no car registered in the system with those tags (which is true, my tags are Florida). But when I put in Florida, it says there's a car in the system with those tags, but that it doesn't match the citation number.

I SHOOT YOU MARYLAND. IN THE FOOT.

If I have to pay it, I'll use money out of savings and fuck it all.

So I need to study for Phil and French in the morning, and I will. But I need some destress time because of stupid stupid school. So I'm going to type up some more of my story for a little while, and then let my computer cool (I still think the fan is broken and I still haven't taken it to the store) and read a while, and THEN get to studying.
karriezai: ([iron man] captive)
I'm getting to the point where I think writing anything that inspires me to keep going and be happy with my work would be worthwhile, an improvement over what I've been doing. I've still got two full-fledged Zelda fanfic ideas that I could write... and one nearly complete idea, and one semi-formed idea. Plus a Kingdom Hearts idea.

I mean, I can't publish them, but it's still writing. And maybe if I got rolling on these and actually finish one or two, the momentum would transfer over to real work.

I dunno. I'll explore my options.

Work had improved a little but now Jordan's scheduling me Saturday nights when I say I can't work again. I've got to talk to him about that.

In school I have an exam tomorrow and Friday. I meant to bring my comm book home today but forgot, so my studying is limited until after the Hooters promo tonight. I'm not too worried, the class isn't that hard, but I also haven't been paying that much attention for a while so I do need to study up.

In brighter news I turn twenty-one in just over a month! I'm excited about that, at least.
karriezai: ([hp] [puff] not a powerpuff)
So work is being retarded but what else is new? They didn't even look at my schedule request for next week, just scheduled me whenever they felt like it. Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday morning, and also Saturday night. Only Thursday morning is a time I said I'm available for. I was going to forgive Saturday night and worry about getting Wednesday and Friday fixed, but then I realized the Plumbers' Ball is that night and Dennis' family paid ridiculous money to get tickets for me and Danny. I have to go. So tomorrow I'll have to include that in my pestering. They piss me off.

Also caught Danny smoking yesterday. Or to be more technical I smelled it on him, and it was too strong to just be standing around smokers. It was on his face, haha. So I was texting Morgan and mentioned that he smelled, and she said something about him always smelling when he's around Aaron, which made me go "What?" So I asked her about how much he smoked, and she told me... she overestimated some, which wasn't that surprising since she only works with him once, sometimes twice a week, but it gave me a more honest idea of it. So I showed him the conversation and then we talked about it. It was a productive talk. I basically told him that I know he doesn't like to talk about it and likes to just brush it aside, but if I don't remind him every time how much it upsets me, then he'll come home smelling like a cigarette more and more often. And how I read that even one or two cigarettes a week can give you similar health issues to a regular smoker, though of course on a much lower level.

He said he'd try to cut back a little more. I compared his smoking once in a while to me finding the motivation to go to the gym regularly, and how I definitely started doing it for him, and even though I do it for me too a little now, I still think about him every time: What workout would get me the best results for Danny? Stuff like that. I asked him if it's really harder for him not to smoke now that he's not actually dependent anymore than it is for me to convince myself to go to the gym regularly. He complimented my willpower like crazy, but that means little to me unless it motivates him to actually stick to cutting back a little more.

Haven't missed any school except when they cancelled it for snow, though, so that's going well. Meh. And I am doing well with the gym, so far, so that's good. I'm recording it in my planner.
karriezai: ([misc] life's a bitch)
When I finally checked my phone this morning around 11:30 I had two voicemails from Jordan asking where I was... which meant he'd changed the schedule since I last looked (on Saturday) because I wasn't supposed to work today. Especially since I haven't worked Thursdays all winter break; I've specifically said I couldn't. Whatever. )

Beyond that. Called Mom today because a refund showed up in my checking from school. I bought my books and asked her if she might leave some of that money in there to help cover them; they were about $420, or will be if there are no used copies. So she agreed to leave half that amount and then proceeded to lecture me about how my savings hasn't been building money and how apparently I'm still supposed to be putting half my pay in savings. Well, that's not doable currently, but then again the only bill she's aware of me having to pay is my cell and she doesn't even know how much that is so maybe that's why she expects that from me. Although I do still have to pay for my own food and any new clothing etc I need, which can be a considerable amount of money by itself. Maybe she just overestimates what I make.

Whatever. It's not too heartening. She still hasn't called me though she mentioned she "misses hearing from me" in her email about a scholarship I told her I need to apply to. And I know she cares about me and I know she's having serious money issues, but at the same time I don't need her telling me that I'm not saving enough money when at least I'm saving something and not in any more debt than my student loans (which I'm already working toward paying off, albeit with baby steps) and I really don't need her asking me what I'm going to do if Danny and I "get sick of being so close all the time" if we live together next year. It's been over two years and I know I've been complaining in my recent posts but I freaking love him to death.

Today was really nice for us, actually, despite a fire alarm being pulled in the middle of My Bloody Valentine (which I was really enjoying and wanted to know the end of) and a couple little instances when Danny seemed to snap at me for no reason (but I suppose that reason would be that he slept really poorly last night). He's doing an inventory right now and I can't wait for him to get home so I can be sexy for him (schoolgirl skirt being the key piece of the outfit) and we can watch Smallville together.
karriezai: ([kh] [soriku] stunned kiss)
Bleargh. Hooters is getting ass-retarded again. )

But anyway, I'm seriously thinking about trying to become a personal trainer. They have a class for it at Maryland, it's 8 weeks, two days a week, only $160. Not for credit, but it does give you all the materials you need to study for ACE certification, plus a 20% discount on taking the ACE certification. I'd do that instead of trying to buy a rowing machine, haha, since I can't in good conscience spend money on both.

Anyway, the class starts February 16th, and it meets Mondays and Wednesdays from 4 to 6, which is something I can manage. Then in the middle-end of April they have open interviews for joining the gym staff, so I could apply to be a personal trainer (they website says personal trainers are students who are often either certified or in the process of getting certified). I think I'd stand a better chance at that then I did before just going for something general and not even getting there early. I'd get there so early this time... Anyway, I'd be done with the personal trainer class, though whether or not I'd have taken the certification yet I have no way of knowing.

What I'm wondering is how much student personal trainers make. I know the rate for one training session is $32 for a student and $40 for a nonstudent, but I imagine the gym takes a good chunk of that. It'd be good, though, as something extra on the side. It's not like a real job where you get scheduled in four hour chunks or more; I'd just be available something like Tuesdays and Fridays before class, Mondays and Fridays after class, and maybe Sundays. No interference with my planned Hooters schedule at all (assuming I'm still working there). And if they had room, I'd gladly also work as weight/fitness staff.

It'd be awesome though. It'd give me extra motivation to go to the gym. For starters I'd already be there for class next semester and then for sessions assuming I get the job... and also, you can't very well be an unfit personal trainer!

I think that once the gym reopens I'll schedule a fitness test thing. It's $20 and it's with a personal trainer, so it'd be good on multiple levels. I could talk to the trainer about the job, see what my level of fitness is like, and probably get some good tips for staying healthy and fit. Woo!

Of course, the interviews in April would be for summer and fall work, which means my current schedule wouldn't apply. But that's okay. I'll endeavor to make the best schedule possible for work next semester. I may even be able to have class only three days a week because by then I'll be done with French. We'll see.

But I'm so excited! I just need a chance to talk it over with Danny.
karriezai: ([asoiaf] wolf blood)
Okay so. As far as school goes... I finished my French homework today and looked into the questions for the final a bit. I know I should prepare at least a bit. My French isn't too bad for my level, but it still takes some thought to put it into words when speaking aloud.

I've been working on my HONR239F final. There are three parts; I just completed the first part. I'll probably at least start on one of the other two tonight, but I also have tomorrow.

In Comm, I figured out that because of my low midterm, I'd have to get pretty much 100s on the three remaining grades (including the final) to get an A. But I will make a B easily assuming I don't fuck up on the final, and I assure you, I will be studying hardcore.

I'm expecting an A in my honors seminar. This will be my last honors seminar, I already applied for my Honors citation, and assuming I'm right about the A, I'll have gotten an A in all my Honors classes. The only thing I'm a little worried about is the participation grade, which is 200 points. I missed a number of classes when other kids were doing their presentations because he doesn't seem like the sort of teacher who takes attendance, so I don't know. But the days I was there should make up for something, I did participate.

I'm also expecting an A in French, probably in Writers' House, and even probably in Theater despite my poor quiz scores. At least, from what grades I can calculate currently, I've got an A in that class. Have to worry about participation in that one, too, though.

In Statistics I'm hoping for a B. I got As on the first two exams and a high B on the third, so if I do well on the final I should make a B, I think. Even accounting for the one homework assignment and one group thingy I missed.

So maintaining a 3.2 or better shouldn't be a problem. If my guesses are accurate and I only make the two Bs, I should make a 3.647. Dean's list! I think.

Now for work shit. )
karriezai: ([avatar] sokkatara omg)
So a couple days ago one of my family members added me on Facebook. She's married to my dad's cousin.

Today she posts this on my wall:

"I am having to remove you from my friend list because there are things in your picture that I feel are morally wrong and I personally can't believe you are doing them! Maybe you should stop to think about some of that for awhile!"

And yes, she did unfriend me. I was very amused. I think she's referring to the pictures of me and Yuka since we're kissing in one and I'm kissing her neck in another, which is particularly funny since they're buried at the back of all my pictures, being some of the earliest I took and put on facebook. It just reminds me of how crazy my family down in Florida is.

Maybe I should be offended but I'm really not. It's funny. What should I say, "Oh, sorry, want to remove me from your family as well?" Ha.

Well I need to stop procrastinating. Will probably update more soon-ish, but for now I've got a paper to work on.
karriezai: ([asoiaf] the pointy end)
I made $160 last night. Thursday night I put $300 in the bank and last night I put $200 in, so today I transferred them over to my account. I paid off my credit card from buying the tire for my car, put $100 in my savings, and put $100 in my holiday etc. savings. Still have $350 in checking, will be $325 once gas goes through (all hail the lower price of gas). Justin hasn't paid the cable yet as far as I know; once he does, I'll have to give him my share. But the phone bill's paid already, so I'll most likely be able to pay him out of whatever I make tonight, particularly if I do as well as yesterday and Thursday.

Last night was because Juraj cut down to the closing four girls at nine, and I was one of the closers. Shortly thereafter, we got a brief rush, so I actually felt busy as I haven't in weeks. It's hard to make much money if you don't have many tables, even if a number of them tip pretty well. In addition to that, though, I had two guys tip me about $35 each last night. And my 'dinner' was just Texas Toast, which only costs 60 cents, so that didn't take much out of my earnings.

I hope Jordan's off today, or at least doesn't close D: I think I'd prefer it if Margaret works, that way we'll do cuts in increments instead of all at once (Juraj does that kind of commonly) and I'll stand a chance at going home. I don't want to go home really early, but it'd be nice to get out sometime between ten and eleven. Of course, I've had really bad luck with cuts lately, so I could end up closing again. As long as I make money I can't complain too much, especially since I'm off tomorrow.

They're getting weirdly strict at work. )

So I've been brainstorming writing ideas and I mean to write them down at work, but I don't typically have time to just sit down and write. And when I do, I often play sudoku instead x) I mean, there are times when I'm done with cleaning my section and my guests are taken care of, but there's always something that could be done. Stocking wait stations, busing other girls' tables, sweeping... the only real time I have to sit and write or even play sudoku is in the first thirty minutes to an hour before I get (many) tables.

But I should get ready for work if I want to stop and get chicken nuggets on the way :)

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